Today, I entered into that dance class again. After literally 5 minutes, it hit me, I better leave before I pile up sins under my name. So, I just went up to the teacher and explained to her that I am going to leave the classroom, (I pretty much didn't want to just walk out, that would be too rude) so I just explained that this isn't the class for me and it would be better if I take a course that didn't include movement in front of men, al-Hamdu lilLah she understood, I left that class thinking optimistically that Allah will replace this with something better. in sha' Allah, whoever is reading this, make du`a' for me.
I really need to figure out my schedule soon, I have planned activities already for the sisters at the University and I need to make them solid. One I'm really excited about is having a professional cook come and teach us how to make some yummy treats... I'm itching to finalize all the planning. This quarter is pretty much going to be about maintaining the home, I think it will be lots of fun. May Allah accept my efforts, that's what is important when it all comes down to it.
al-Hamdu lilLah I found out my friend Iman's mother is a graduate from al Azhar, and she's going to be teaching us `arabi, subHan Allah, I've always wanted lessons so badly, and to think I'm going to get the opportunity to learn, al-Hamdu lilLah, my heart is happy. On top of that we have Imad Bayoun not only coming to every MSA meeting to give a lecture, but he will be holding Halaqah's as well, what a blessing! al-Hamdu lilLah again, my heart's even more happy.
and... that's not all... one of the brothers is holding a meeting time to memorize Qur'an, what more can I ask for? My heart is sooo happy! al-Hamdu lilLah for happiness.
Oh al-Hamdu lilLah for the happiness at school... but oh wait, there's more.. happiness at home:
I came home really tired today, drained! absolutely drained, and Amir greets me and wants to bake a cake. Honestly, I did not feel like doing it, I really didn't... but I can't refuse him, especially since he had been waiting for me... and my friends know one thing I hate, is making people wait, whether it is a child, elder, my age, or if I am invited somewhere, or asked to do something, I hate, hate, hate making people wait. subHan Allah, and in one case in my life someone is waiting, and ya Rabbi really I wish this person didn't have to, but there is only so much I can control.
So my brother is waiting with his cake, and I figured, if I have to do it I might as well make the best out of it. soooo, to amuse myself I told Amir, you crack the eggs, and he was sooo afraid he would tap the egg, and I'm telling him "harder" and he taps it just bit harder. Then I show him with my hands how hard I want him to do it, thinking if I over exaggerate it will make him hit hard enough to break... he he, he listened to me, the egg went all over his hands. lqtm. Anyways, so I pretty much made him put the whole cake together by himself and just guiding him with my words and it made the experience pretty fun, so al-Hamdu lilLah for that.
Yesterday I had quite a bit of homework, and for some reason I just really really really did not feel interested in even looking at it, but I did not want to "feel" this way, and I know very well that if I set my mind straight I can control the way I feel. So, I decided to open the Qur'an and go over one surah that I had memorized before and re-read its meaning, and make sure I have it stuck in my mind solid. Turned out I had forgotten a verse or two, so I sat until I had that surah in my mind back to how it was, and all of a sudden success, I felt like doing school work. Allah's help is indeed near, and not only did I do the school work but I put in a couple of hours of just studying the material and making extra notes, and it felt so good while I was doing it, and when I had completed it. al-Hamdu lilLah. It makes sense why people would do qiyam al layl when they want the following day to be successful. Read some Qur'an and then do homework, I'm going to make that part of my routine from now on, it worked really well for me.
so where's the pinch? Gotta have a pinch you know.
I took a look at the reading that I have to do for my Religions and Violence class ... I was bummed, in the course description it said that we were going to be discussing the Palestinian Israeli conflict and I really wanted to learn more about that, but looking over her syllabus it's not even a part of the class at all. I'm disappointed, but oh well, I learn for myself anyways, so I'll find time to learn whatever I want to, in sha' Allah. I'm still bummed though, khayr in sha' Allah.
lqtm, 2 classes ended up being
not what I had expected: the dance class, and the Religion and Violence class. al-Hamdu lilLah. Khayr in sha' Allah.... al-Hamdu lilLah for everything, there must be a reason behind all this.