sigh, first day not so fun

I'm really exhausted, subHan Allah, one student threw up 4 times in class... another would cry every hour, and another wanted his parents next to him the whole time, like the parent would be out of sight and yeee.

Then, I thought I had more than enough work to cover for the day, but subHan Allah they finished everything so fast, and I don't blame them, I mean most of it this week is review from the year before.

Once the day had ended, I rushed to my grandfathers surprise 80th birthday party. I decided for birthdays I would go since I was invited, but right when they do all the ritual bid`ah stuff I would leave the room. I don't know if even that is acceptable with Allah, I feel like I shouldn't even be there, ya Rab.

Then that finished just in time for my friends birthday party... subHan Allah, for that party I just stayed to the side with a couple of friends. I don't know, but we need to change the condition of this ummah somehow, if I hadn't carpooled I would have left sooner, subHan Allah, it was not comfortable. Like my heart right now still feels uneasy.

It's true, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.

sigh wa sigh... long day.

Now I'm home, exhausted, with books by my bed that need to be looked through tonight, and creativity, I need to be creative!!! I don't expect to sleep that much. I know my body has limits and although I'll try to force my wakefulness, I can only do so much. I definitely need to get a teachers aid, this isn't something I can handle alone. subHan Allah, if anyone can make du`a' for me I am in need of it.

... on the brighter side of things... my Spanish class is done with, and finally I finished all that is required for my Bachelors! al-Hamdu liLlah, NOW ... now... I feel like I have graduated, al-Hamdu liLlah.

Okay, I better leave so I can get some work done. Somehow I feel like things are bound to get easier, in sha' Allah.