Dreams

Why is it that we dream such odd dreams? subHan Allah, I dream about my 1st grade class A LOT. Sometimes I'm teaching them, sometimes I'm giving them work, just lots of random stuff. I even had a dream someone came over, subHan Allah. In that dream I just remember this person talking, I forgot about what though. I think these are just dreams of what we're thinking about.

My Teachers Assistant a very kind, sweet, pious and wise older woman told me that she had a dream about me. I never mentioned what she told me, but I will right now. She told me that her dreams always come true, and that in her dream I was getting engaged. She said a brother came to my house with a diamond ring ~When she said that I thought about how I really don't like diamonds because of the diamond wars, but I smiled anyway, just because she was smiling and smiling is very contagious!~ Then she explained how she expected that by the time I returned from Winter Break I would be engaged. It's a comforting thought, I really would like to protect myself from any other proposals. Allah knows best.

I'm really glad someone is making a trip down here, I just really wish I knew what was going on. My father is not telling me anything, and I'm trying to squeeze things out of my mom. Khayr, al-Hamdu liLlah. I pray for the best, perhaps it's best that I don't know exactly what's going on. It's okay, lots of things are ghaib from us, wa al-Hamdu liLlah.

For my break, a lot of my time has been spent going to "most" things that I have been invited too. Today I have a henna party for a friend, and her wedding is on Friday. I'm wondering if my family will go to her wedding, I really hope they do, I do not want to miss it. I've been friends with her ever since "I" was in Sunday school. We lost touch after I turned 15, then we just happened to bump into each other this year, and subHan Allah we rekindled our memories and then she invited me to her henna and wedding, how nice, al-Hamdu liLlah. She told me there were a lot of guys looking to get married, I explained to her that I'm involved with someone so not to mention my name to anyone. I like that people help other people to get married, barak Allahu fihum.

subHan Allah, I very strongly am opposed to any other proposals! I got about two recently from people I know around me and it's just very hard to deal with. One person was the uncle of one of my students, and I just felt really weird, and declined the offer in the best way I knew how. I never was confronted with so many proposals, subHan Allah, it's like right when I'm set on something all of a sudden they pop up from every direction. Maybe it's just because I graduated and that's the go signal or something, Allahu a`lam.

Let's see what are my plans for winter break? Well, for starters a mother of one of my students also a board member at the school I work at recommended me to a lady who had a girl with a learning disability. She told the lady that I would most likely get through to her daughter because I'm a sweet teacher. subHan Allah, sweetness does not mean I know how to deal with every child, I know that for a fact. The lady called me and I told her, I would try to help her, but that I cannot guarantee her anything. She asked how much do I charge. Why do people do that? What if I just don't want to charge you? Why can't they accept that? Why do they have to pay me? subHan Allah, I told her du`a' would be more than enough as a payment, and she got mad at me for saying that. Then I told her, whatever the minimum charge is, that's the one I will accept.

I tutored one of my students who was behind in my class, and her mother was too much. She would send with her daughter almost every day a little gift for me and this is on top of what she paid me, which was way more than I deserved, and I told her that, and still she insisted. Barak Allahu fiha, it's very nice, and I appreciate it a lot, but sometimes I feel it's just too much. al-Hamdu liLlah. May I learn to just accept the generosity that is around me.

What else? -smiles- al-Hamdu liLlah, I'm excited about what's to come, no matter what the turn out is, I trust that Allah knows what's best for me, and that Allah will guide me towards what is best.

Tawakkul, it's a beautiful thing, al-Hamdu liLlah.